Medic ? No longer qualified

wow . aku sendiri terlupe yg aku mmg obses nak masuk aucms proceed medic dulu until aku bace balik post2 aku yg lama kan . haha , act bile dah belajar kat asasi ni , aku rasa peluang nak amik medic tu tipis sngt lagi nipis dari lapisan ozon ah ( hambar ) . lagipun aku mcm dah lost interest dekat medic ( atau putus asa aku pun taktau la ) . 

act aku rasa aku gila2 nak amik medic dulu sbb kakak aku medic . honestly aku rasa inferior dan malu bila kaum keluarga mula menanyakan soalan2 berkaitan career ini . since family aku kebanyakannya mmg doctors , and kakak aku pun bakal doctor , semue org pun mcm tak habis2 nak menyanjung2 tinggi career ini , aku selalu ditanyakan " na amik medic kan ? " atau " yelaaa , na kan bakal dr " . sepenatnye aku nak jawab " eh mane ade " . penat lagi aku nak jwb bila diorang akn tnye " eh kenape ? " yelaaaaa . CGPA i ni , tinggi la sngt mencakar langit kan . sem 1 3.63 je . tapi alhamdulillah , semakin aku sedar yg matlamat hidup ni bkn dr , and aku sedar yg , i deserve to be happy in whatever career  i venture into , and aku takut Allah marah kalau aku selalu mempersoalkan bende2 mcm ni .  so aku decide utk campak jauh2 ke negara china impian aku tu . sbb once aku sedar , impian aku bkn untuk jadi dr tapi sebenarnye utk melepaskan diri aku drpd rasa rendah oleh masyarakat2 ini . ( padahal ade je cita2 nak jadi dr ) 

ah , nak ke tak , i have to live with what i earn . kalau dah tak layak tu its okay , aku sure Allah dah tetapkan something yg baik utk aku .

farewell and assalamualaikum

i dont know how to blog

ceh , ckp mcm ni first entry kan . haaaa . act aku mmg tak reti bende2 blogging ni . kalau ade entry tu maksudnye semangat gila ah time tu . ni pun sbb cuti so sngt bosan aku ingt aku nak tulis something la kan , so rase mcm writer novel mcm tu kan . haha anyways i dont know if im gonna be active updating blog since cuti akn berlanjutan smpai bulan 9 and kerja pun takdaaa . takpe kite tengok jela nnt 

farewell and assalamualaikum

the truth underneath whats witnessed

to be honest , life's been quite hectic these days . the fact that im still trying to fit myself in this new chapter of my life makes me kinda want to throw up . what the fish bdak2 semue pndai2 . i've been sleeping late like 3 days in a row . and gonna have to sleep late again today to work on my assignments otherwise i'll be the dumb-girl-in-the-class again . 
fate oppose my dream when im agaaain , rejected by mara to proceed my studies in medic . sincerely , im kinda lost in this world of surprise . future is unpredictable . future is frightening . thinking my friends left me behind , when im trying to lift my heavy hope in a condition where i couldnt vomit as much effort as i can . too much to think of that i couldnt reach the conscience as a student . 
dont tell me to be strong cause i've tried and still trying . give me some time alone . alone for me to regret my doings . alone to summon my spirit back to when i was strong back then . alone to think about what i should do to face whatever obstacle Allah gave me . and to find the answer Allah trying to tell me .

farewell and assalamualaikum 

My parking story PG18

tadi aku keluar dgn haziq , nada dgn ari tengok Avengers . aku drive . aku ni mmg tak pndai sngt tau masuk parking . haha , mase dtg kereta tak bnyk pun , so skali mase tu nak parking kepale tapi mcm senget2 la pulak kan . so ingt mcm nak reverse je parking kat blkg sbelah lori sbb tibe2 kereta mcm terreverse betul2 sbelah lori tu . 


so cerite nye mcm ni . lori tu senget . so automatically aku pun parking senget la . tapi tengok mcm tak rmai org so takpe la . kitorang pun masuk la tengok avengers semue2 tu skali mase balik , kereta dah penuh . rase berslh sbb kereta aku senget . then i found a note , very pleasant and warm . boleh jatuh cinta aku dgn penulisnya . tapi act gambar ni yg duplicate . note tu dah komot2 bagi ari . ari buang . 


lori tu dah takde buat mcm aku salah 100 peratus . haha . eh fahamla saya P . please jgn marah . nasib baik saya tak menangis tau ! 


huhu saya taknak buat lagi !

looking forward towards future

recently i checked and dpt kolej matrikulasi dekat johor . i didn't plan to go ( never on plan ) . kesian dekat unfortunate people out there ( baca slang canadian ) yg nak sngt matrik tapi tak dpt . pdahal aku bknnye nak dari awal . tapi cume as back-up plan . pada pendapat amilia farina , matrik adlh sesuatu yg membuang masa bagi dirinya . haha . sbb , result aku kire mcm dah okay . kalau proceed ke matrik , aku akn amik medic jgk nnt . rase mcm seolah2 tambah mase 1 tahun utk nak dpt result lagi gempak . okay dah ni .

insyaAllah mintak scholar mara dekat aucms dan msu tu dpt . kalau tak dpt pun , UPU ade lagi . kalau haziq nada semue tu tak perlu risau lagi . confirm dpt scholar . im so anxious about the upcoming interview for MARA scholar ( if dapat la ) cause my english level is not that high . if boleh pun , aku boleh tulis je . please interviewers , boleh tak tulis jwpn atas kertas je . hahahaha . plus , im really that clumsy . its my genuine behavior .

i never knew how my future would be . i pray fate would be on my side . even though im not that keen towards becoming a doctor ( referring my MARA essay ) , tapi at least tu jela yg aku rase paling okay . i mean , siape taknak kan dpt title doctor . bkn nak berlagak tapi rase mcm cool gile . hahaha . lagipun , i mmg nak tolong org sakit . actually aku nak study overseas tapi kan , 3 A+ je ( im jack of all trades ) . very ineligible .

tokse tulih panje2 . nnt takdo oghe nok baco . haha . so guys . pray for my success . farewell !

My MARA essay

   My name is Amilia Farina binti Mohd Rais . I was born on 17^th of October year 1994 which makes me 18 years old this year . I am the second daughter of the family with a sister and a little brother . My family is currently staying at Taman Seri Gombak . I was schooling at SMK Taman Seri Gombak during the SPM examination . Undoubtedly , ever since I was a kid , I latent a deep interest upon becoming a doctor . I struggled to seek the best result for all my big examinations . I passed my examinations with flying colours ( UPSR(5A) , PMR(8A) and SPM(9A) ) . I believe I’ll be struggling with stronger spirits to be an excellent and dedicated doctor in any ways . I embraced myself in many curricular and co-curricular activities to enhance my self-quality into a student with a higher values .

   I decided to pursue my study in any university in Malaysia because I believe in its credibility and it’s well established system . I have made some research and was gobsmacked and honored by the success of some of our national universities . I found myself interested on doing pre-medic or foundation in science for a year before proceeding to degree in medicine for about 5 years . I’ll gain experiences within two years of housemanship either in government or private hospital in Malaysia . I’ll do master afterwards and do my specialization in pediatrics . I also have a compelling reason why I chose to further my study in Malaysia . I hope during my time studying here in Malaysia , I learn to become loyal to this country for I always wanted to serve my best for we Malaysians .

   Choosing doctor as my future career has always been my dream . I love to make people happy as well as I hate to see people hurting . I know I am no superhuman to enhance the quality of all community members . But at least I could save lives . And perhaps the live of a future engineer or a scientist that somehow could develop Malaysia into an advanced country across the globe . Apart from that , I discovered myself having a sense of inquiry which makes  me curious in subjects related to health such as biology . I am so keen to explore more about health in science . As Malaysian citizen , I realize that I am bound by the obligations towards other citizens as well . I’ll contribute my knowledge and skills in medicine to cure and heal Malaysian citizens . I promised myself to keep a good attitude as a doctor especially when handling youth generation . I don’t want to be just a doctor . I want to be a role model originally shaped by our nation , Malaysia . 

Niall Horan (Best Bits) + his laugh